Believe it or not, 2011 was one of the worst and toughest years in my life. I've had the worst grades, the worst taste in men and the worst luck in life. But I have moved on and sworn to myself that I will use every single experience to make myself better. Of course, my year isn't exactly filled with dark clouds and heavy downpour. There were also things that I am very thankful for, and here they are.

1. Jonah and Yeyel

They are like my long lost siblings. I really cherish both of them because we are three very different people but we seem to get along well. We usually go out and spend time together whenever possible. Yeyel is a drummer in the pep squad and he's quite busy so we don't get to hang out much. Jonah is my lab partner in Chem 17. She also likes to read books like me. I met both them in 2010 but we got really close in 2011. We were classmates in almost all subjects but we only talked during the middle of the semester. Because of our common love for How I Met Your Mother, we got really close, and the rest is <3. I really love these people.

2. UP ALCHEMES (Academic League of Chemical Engineering Students)

I became an applicant last semester. I still remember having trouble in picking which department organization to join, but now I have no regrets in joining UP ALCHEMES. UP ALCHEMES gave me a chance to meet people in the department from different year levels. They are all friendly and nice! I made a lot of good friends in ALCHEMES. It also gave me a lot of opportunities. I enjoyed playing football in the sports clinic while getting real muddy in the Sunken Garden. I also enjoyed the team building activity before our final rites. I loved every single activity in the application process. My buddy, Kuya Pao, helped me to finish my application process. I love surrounding myself with these people. <3 My first Engineering Week as a member was a blast thanks to these people. During that time I really felt our oneness and our org spirit, even though we had a lot of default games. I will surely join mini-games next time. The Dulaang Eng'g experience was also fun because I haven't performed anything on stage in a very long time. I just loooooove my org. <3

3. Ze alcohol

I have been a goody two-shoes for as long as I can remember. I detest alcohol when I was in high school. I thought it brought out the worst in people, and that it is a waste of money. That was until 2011. I learned that it isn't bad to drink alcohol. In fact, I enjoyed being tipsy because I felt a little numb. I also learned to loosen up a bit because I have missed out a lot when I was a kid for being a goody two-shoes. I also learned to control myself and to know when to stop. This does not only apply to drinking, but to my life in general. I don't really know when to stop until # 3 happened. And don't drink without trustworthy friends who are willing to take you home when you are drunk (HI I KNOW YOU AREN'T GOING TO READ THIS BUT THANK YOU FRIENDSSSS). XD

4. My boardmates

I could never stress enough how I love my roomies who have been there for me since 2010. Thank you for always comforting me through every failed exam, every failed attempt, every heartbreak and every broke moment. Lol. I love these people. We all moved together to a different boarding house this year. We are not floormates anymore and we have been divided into four rooms. I love the fact that we still go to the reception area to watch TV and share stories together after a rough day. I love them to bits. <3

Because of these people, 2011 has been bearable. I am always, always hoping for the best this 2012. Cheers to a good year! <3

I thought taking 19 units would be easier than having Chem this semester. Gahhhhhd. It's only been three weeks but I'm already exhausted. I'm even beginning to question why I'm taking chemical engineering. It's too tiring to walk from Eng'g to Math and back. I'm also beginning to regret taking Bio 1. I should've stuck to 16 units, but it's too risky.

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My feelings are just too much that I cannot contain them anymore. I tried hiding them and suppressing them by finding another person to give it to, but it was only temporary. Everything somehow leads me back to you. You may find it creepy but yes, I've liked you since first semester. I know you're too busy to even care but I really like you. Srsly. I don't even know if you know that this blog actually exists. I know you only think of me as a younger sister and a friend. I just want to be by your side, even if that means being your friend forever. Srsly. I'd rather not tell you how I feel than to lose what we have right now. Gah.

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..., a friend saved me from my misery. Gosh. Thank You God for the awesome people in my life. I may have lost some but now I know for sure who will stay with me through the good times and the bad. Thank You! I feel so much better about myself. After having a horrible semester I feel so worthless and stupid and low. Hayyyy. :') Life comes with awesome gifts in small packages and in some cases, persons. :"> :D

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A lot has happened in the last few days and all of it-- Physics long exam, ChE first long exam results, an open stopcock and an overtitrated sodium carbonate in Chem lab , Math midterms, ChE MP, matters of the heart, yes, ALL of it has stressed the hell out of me. Agh. I don't look so fresh anymore. I barely complete my necessary 8 hrs of sleep everyday. /wrist

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Enough said. I hate you.

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Time really flies quickly. I'm now a sophomore! Since my last post, a lot has changed. I had my hair cut really REALLY short, knew lots of fun people (Chem 17 lab is much love! :">) and passed my subjects last semester. I'm still alive, to my surprise. Ohohoho.

It's pretty weird not having anything to talk about for the past few months. I've had a fun life last semester: futsal, Chem 17 lab, occasional dinner out with friends, Timezone and shiz. I just don't know why every time I log-in, I try to type a little and the words seem to disappear. I even feared that I might have lost my ability to convey my feelings through writing.

I also had thoughts about leaving Blogger and using WordPress but my heart is longing for Blogger. After all, it was the only blogging site where I posted all my feelings and daily what-nots since Grade 6 (but in a different URL, which I forgot). Oh well. Life goes on.

I miss sleeping for hours. I miss jogging too. Ah, yes. Last summer I jogged in preparation for our lab class' outing. I had fun jogging and sweating in the acad oval every afternoon. I'm also considering taking my last PE class next summer. /excited I miss lots of stuffs that I get to do during my first year in UP.

I don't have much time this year, specifically this semester. I have four major subjects: ChE 26, Chem 28 & 28.1, Physics 72 & 72.1 and Math 54. I am also applying at UP ALCHEMES. I'm having fun spending time at the tambayan ohohohoho. I am finally meeting upperclassmen and batchmates that I haven't seen before.

It's good to be back. <3 :)

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